☀ Friday, July 31, 2009 ☀

Lol, watched naruto shippuden 119, 120. Watched dao cry sia. The part so touching where Obito gave Kakashi his sharingan. Now i can understand true friendship le.. Lol. So touched. T__T. Watched bleach 230 also. Nice ep. (:

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That is love;

☀ Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ☀

Thanks cute cute de xammie for listening to my grandmother story ytd. hahaha. :3 ahh, a brand new day again. how time flies. Lol. Suddenly, thought of last time de me then i found out last time de me was cute. hahaha. Lol. If Jen boss happened to see this, please don't dock my pay. hahaha. Confused about my maple life liao.. dono which 1 is true , which 1 is fake. Lol. Whatever lo.. as long as she happy can liao. I don't mind anyway & oh ya JS. About your handphone question, i think i stick to the same answer that i answered lo.. if i lose it, it's at least better than her losing it right. :3 At least, she lose le can find a better one lo like that guy lo. As for me leh.. i also dono who to love le besides her. So.. conclusion ; i lose the phone better. hahaha. :P & hor.. human de brain is so marvellous lo. idk why i fall for her also leh.. & how come i no feelings for other girls. i mean those love type. LOl. -slapslap- myself. Actually, single is good also.. hahaha. But then hor.. hais.. on the other way round, not good also. LOL. idk what i writing la.. blahblah craps. I just wrote what my brain thinks of lo. x.x

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That is love;

☀ Tuesday, July 28, 2009 ☀

Treasure your loved ones, don't let them slip away.. (: hais, age makes a lot of difference huh. Hmm.. when people grow old, they will eventually die. How i wish i can change this "law" lo.. sobsob. I suddenly miss my grandfather a lot. The times we spent.. i remember i gave him the lottery number "2488" & it open. Lol. Then, i stayed in my grandfather's house 3 days. :D Had so much fun.. but that was like p2 or p1. :3 To say i don't care about a loved one of mine, that's so fake. To say i'm cold, please do understand me more.. :3 To say i am handsome, please do learn to love me through my personality. To say i'm rich, please do understand my living conditions first before you assume i'm rich. To say i'm maple pro, please do understand i am once a noob too. hahaha. random craps. (:

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That is love;

☀ Monday, July 27, 2009 ☀

Today. Morning class. Supposed to wake up at 8 de. But then, overslept so wake up at 9. :3 Then, cannot find my things. So fedup. x.x Keep searching around my house. Search for 15 mins also cannot find. In the end, nearly give up. Then, went to take my wallet then found it. :D Reached school at around 10. Lol. Late by 1 hour. Mr Wong, my CA ask me what happened. I told him le lo. Then, that jiao bin come scold me. zz. I tolerate lo. After that, breaktime le. haas. Brought my laptop. So went to cafeteria & play Maple lo. Lol. After that, went back class. Late by 5 mins. My friends all also late. All tio scolded for 1 min nia. Then, when i want go in le , that jiao bin ask me stay outside & scold me. zz. Nvm i tolerate. He even remove my name from the grouplist sia. Chicken pie. I v. not happy le lo. Then, my CA told me to tolerate him. He told me something. Then, he say just for few mths. I listen to him lo. Mr Wong is a good teacher. x.x After that, that malay jiao bin ask me bow down to him & say sorry. I was like wth. Siao a. I never bow down to anyone before & he dare ask me do that. zz. Lucky my CA around. Then, he protect me & ask me go back to my seat. After that, he called all the GPA 4/4 pointers de gather around him. Me & 3 more ppl. Then, he teach us the secret of doing this & that. Lol. So good. ^_^ Jiao bin, you want sabo me don't get distinctions right. Wait till i show u i get distinction. I shall spit on you & say it to your face that you suck. Wait & see. (:

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That is love;

☀ Saturday, July 25, 2009 ☀

Finally blogger is operating normally again. haas. Thanks to those who concerned about me via sms, phone, msn, maple, rl. Love you guys. haas. I am regaining my happiness bit by bit per day. I hope i can laugh & smile like last time soon. ^_^ Just 2 more mths, & that fishtank can get out of my sight le. Idiot ass. Thursday, cutted hair le & went to class. Then, he whole lesson keep stare at me, i giv him the works i done. Other ppl never use ruler draw get 8/10. I use ruler & colours draw get only 6/10. Girls higher marks also. What is this man. Last time, want sabo me fail in exam when i get the correct answer. Now still do like that. You're such an asshole. Get out of my sight please. (:

<3s
Ruihui
Xuan
JiaSheng
Fav
Shu
Jonathan
Seeyan
Jennet
Chin Eing
Fiona
Princess
Knight
Jun Yan
Ji Ling
YeanHuay
Yin
Clement

&&&&&&&&&&&

many others more. <3

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That is love;

☀ Thursday, July 23, 2009 ☀

i missed my smile. (: .. T__T

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That is love;

☀ Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ☀

Damn blogger , dono why cannot blog in a proper way sia. zzz. Yesterday, was a lol day maybe. Nothing much happened lo. After school, took bus & went home. On the bus, got 1 girl keep look at me lo, then side by side somemore only. Then, the stead dono jealous or what ask the girl he more shuai or i more shuai. The girl say i more shuai sia. Lol. Then, the boy ask his stead he taller or i taller. The girl say me again. LOL ! The people in the bus looked at him sia. He was like so paiseh. But then, the girl quite pretty also leh. :3 But sadly, i now no mood to get into a relationship. At night, ate steamboat with my mummy. She treat me eat sia. So rare that we can be together eating. Normally, either she is working or eat at home d. V. nice to be with mummy. I felt that i can share everything to mummy. But, i scared she worry for me. I dowan she worry for me. Love mummy <3

Today, afternoon lesson. Thought of a lot of things when i am bathing. Then, think dao last time one of my best friends ; shaowei. I rmb the happy moments i had with him lo. Sing in class, play ps2, play Maple all those. Then, think dao a lot of ppl also. Nearly cried while bathing. After that, went school again lo. hais. Not in a v. good mood for 2 weeks+ le. My friends say they miss my cute smile. But then, how can i smile? I cannot smile anymore, so i act a fake smile to make them happy lo & say i am alright. (: I don't want anyone to worry abt me. Especially my close friends. I dono when can i recover from this sadness. More & more problems are coming in everyday. Dono can survive till when. Sian.

<3(s)
Ruihui ; she is the one who always make me smile. A genuine one. I love you, ruihui. <3
Mummy ; she is the one always backing me up. But, i let her down. I love mummy.
Mr Wong ; he is backing me up in school. Beloved teacher. I let you down too. I am been skipping lessons lately cause i can't bring myself to study. hais.
My friends ; thanks for standing by me all these while. But i need to be alone sometimes k. Don't worry. I think i can recover from this. (:

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That is love;

☀ Monday, July 20, 2009 ☀

SCHOOL SUCKS & thanks Jun Yan for listening to my craps. (:

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That is love;

☀ Saturday, July 18, 2009 ☀

P.S ; It's ugly. For those who know me in rl. These pics are ugly.

Cutted hair le lor.. hmm. Let me explain to those cannot see the difference ba. My old fringe is at mouth there, my new fringe is at eyes below. I spike my middle. Kept my back. Sideburns trim thinner. Like that lor. Lol. haas. These days not v. good. Hais. How i wish got the 1 week quaratine. Then, can sleep at home le. Yesterday, my class advisor advise me don't make big trouble with that malay fat ass. Lol. He say if you're handsome, don't even need your hair to make you handsome. Lol. Then he say i handsome. -_- Then he say he can de-barred me from exams. What can i do leh? Nothing i can do ma.. so i shall be a "dog" to follow his orders lor. I shall tolerate it for few more months. After that, i don't have to be a "dog" anymore. I SHALL VISIT HIM with the longest hair i got. Lol. :3 Hmm.. i am worrying her leh. Haiyo. Keep emo these days. I also cannot help anything. Not her real life friend also. LOL. I am hesitating. Cause i am scared of something that might happen. Oh ya. Yesterday, chatted with guai seeyan. Lol. She say everyone got sad times de ma.. so don't need hide. Lol. I agree leh. Seeyan these days becoming GUAI liao. hahaha. See, seeyan i blog about you. :3 This month not a good month for me too. x.x

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That is love;

☀ Monday, July 13, 2009 ☀

First time i double posted yea, cause maybe i just want to write a post.

Hais, just now not in a mood to do anything yea. And, my coughing cannot be cured. What can i do. Hais. You said that if i don't study, might as well save the time & go to work. But even if you pull me go school & make me sit on the chair & study. My body is here, my soul isn't here. How well do you really understand me. From young till old, you only provide me what i needed. But then, you don't really understand me well enough. Sometimes, i will just share my feelings to my mother. She can understand it. Or maybe i'm too spoilt by my mummy. I don't know anything anymore. But, looking at my brother, i really think i'm just a failure. hais. My brother, every year in primary school & secondary school also get the scholarship award, now uni le. But what about me. I never even get a single dam award & i'm like always in the middle or something, i am never once in the top of the class before. How i envy him. I am like in hell, while he is in heaven. That type of distance can never ever be c0vered. I will never ever be like him. I know i just gonna flank this sesmester's theory & the teacher simply just against me. I gonna sink down v. deep this time round. I think i will be just expelled from school. And that's the end of me. I don't know who is me, why i sad of, what i want anymore. I want a true smile, but not a fake one. Who is there to stand by me & fulfill that wish for me? I guess nobody cause i am not worthy for anyone anymore. I am just disappointed in myself, & doesn't deserves to be in such a good family. And school is pressing me for the absence of the oversea trip on the holiday, i have no valid reasons. Let it be. I have no MC for friday & today cause i never go see doctor. But, i ate my medicine at home. But who will believe right? No evidence = no talk. I am dead this time. End.

Friends is like money, last time i had a lot of friends. But i just can't be bothered & just thrown them away like nothing. Now i am like bankrupt already. No more friends & somemore some of them forgotten me or hate me already. Now i understand how does it feel like to be pressed. School press, family press, future press, relationship press, results press. How am i gonna answer. I wonder.. :o

I am losing EVERYTHING & myself.. how i wish someone can help, but there won't be one. (:

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That is love;

☀

Hello all readers. Sorry for not posting this few days. These days a lot of things happened yea. Hmm, Friday never go school cause sick. Slight fever & flu. Satursday, was okay in the morning & afternoon. Then, at night my temperature suddenly rise up to 38.9. Nobody was at home that time. I was all alone & nothing to eat. So, i went to cook instant noodles. After eating, wanna go find medicine. But then, no more medicine le. My eyes felt so tired & the last thing i saw is outside the window was raining heavily & i just fainted. I thought it's the end of me already. Then, i heard voices in my dream. I don't know who is that. Someone is calling on to me. Next day, i wake up & found myself on the bed with a wet towel. It was around 11am. I slept from 8pm~11am. Wow, it was 14 hours. x.x Played Maple & so on as usually. Recovering but then my cough came again. My cough won't recover de, no matter how many doctors i see, how many medicines i ate. Hais. Monday, which is today. Never go school due to cough. I don't want see any more doctors already. Cause it's wasting $. Recieved a call from lecturer saying i will be banned from going oversea trips with school anymore cause i skipped the oversea trip last time on June which is provided by government. I don't want to leave my friends yea. Even for 1/2 weeks. zz. I guess it doesn't matter anymore. I am losing almost everything that i had. Losing my results soon, my future, my voice due to cough, my health, & maybe myself. I cannot understand myself anymore. Let it be. All i wanted is for you to be happy, no wonder who you are with. I will protect you as much as i can. That's all i need for now. :3

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That is love;

☀ Thursday, July 9, 2009 ☀

Hmm.. today sucks yea. Let's start off with a happy note. Went school & late for 1 hour due to overslepting. Lol. After that, 30 mins more jiu got break liao. haas. Went to eat the ban mian. Lol. Dam nice sia & $2 nia. :P After that, ate the dessert ; the ice kacang or what. Stupid Ji Ling keep make me laugh, make me cannot eat properly. Lol. He also suffer la. I laughed dao he also cannot eat. LOL. haas. After that, went for class. Fuck this class ; it sucks. x.x Went in straight got things to do le. I not feeling well & whole body v. weak. I do halfway then lay my head on the table cause v. tired. I wanna faint like that le. Then, do wrongly for my work also so i just dump it away. This fucking teacher came kp me. x.x He said you come school to sleep ar & where's your work. I said, i sick & i thrown my work away cause i do wrongly. He say don't find excuses la.. you never do right. I was like wtf. Then i scold that teacher infront of everybody. I said, i done it means i done it. Believe it or not up to you & don't anyhow malign ppl. Teacher big fuck ar! pui la hor. Giv you respect , you like that. tmd. You this biased idiot, treat girls so good, treat boys like shyt. Lol. Go home la, you OLD MALAY teacher. Don't think you got authority cab abuse it hor. hmph. After that, cannot tahan le ; so pon lessons till 6.30pm. Went home at 3. Took my temperature & it's 38.4. Lol. After that, went to Maple see see. Js need ppl help him & so i just helped him lor. Help dao i forgot i still got headache & whole body hot like charcoal. x.x Went to splash cold water & took wet towel for myself. First time, i takecare of myself.. before that was my parents. Since nobody at home, no choice lor. Put wet towel on my forehead & went to rest. Lol. After that, recover le. Surf net & sms my ruihui lor. Like that lor. :P

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That is love;

☀ Wednesday, July 8, 2009 ☀

Life is like a mystery ..

You must walk down the road to see the love, fruition, sorrow, happiness of life ..

My journey of life, had reached the 4th stage. I had already been through thick & thin of my life. Therefore, i am able to understand most things about life. I dare not say i been through what you all have been through, but majority of your common problems in life like love, friendship, stress, studies, etc. My ambition is to become a psychologist. Maybe, many ppl think that psychologist aren't that powerful and it's true. Lol. But, what is the most powerful in life is thoughts which come from your BRAIN. haas. So, there are 2 kinds of people in this world ; kind & evil. Whatever you give the evil, it will be a bad thing. But, everyone is kind in nature, nobody is evil by the day you're born. It depends on your surrounding, people you socialise with, parents, etc. So, i shall be the KIND psychologist ba.. i shall help ppl who are mentally in need. haas. ^^ ahh, i sounds so mature. LOL. And Js, see i will post longer post than you. ROAR. ^^

K1 ; my first day in school.. I remember i had to write my mother's name on the workbook. Lol. I dono what's my mom's name that time, so i just wrote a ENG inside. LOL. Then, i went home & told my mom about that. She laughed so loud. haas. I have v. few friends that time like 4 to 6 friends who always sit together.

K2 ; some of my friends remained in this class.. if i remember. Everyday, the teachers made 1 cup of hot milo & some biscuits for us. LOL. Hmm, during this year. I met my first best friend. It's a girl. Lol. She everytime pei me together. Together we laugh, we draw, we write, we play around. Then, one day ; i forgotten.. how.. but we kinda get into some childhood love ba. LOL. Don't really rmb lor. Then at the last day of kindergarden, we had a graduation party. I graduate with all A* on the report book. LOL. anyhow write also A* de la. f3. That was the last day i saw her, played around with her, laughed at her. Lol. Ever since, she mia. x.x

Pri 1 ; Lol, i met my "yi jian zhong qing" de target. Skinny, white complexion, long hair. Lol. Like a "fairy" . Her name is .. Nicole. haas. That time de me look retarded de la. LOL. hair like bangs. x.x Then hor, i rmb. Got 1 pri 5 girl be my dono what buddy la. She buy for me food, drinks then protect me all those de. LOL. Then, i rmb must hold hand together till recess ends. zzz. If i rmb.. she got wear specs de.. face white de.. skinny de.. dono how describe Lol. Btw, i am in class 1-1. Lol. Ok, end of P1.

Pri 2 ; nothing happened much this year la.. don't really rmb & i am in 2-1. LOL .

Pri 3 ; ahh, this year went to class 3K. haas. 3 KINGS HOR. LOL. This year, fun la. hahaha. One friend that i rmb is Derrick Chua Wei Jie(mia after pri 3). Lol. That guy was my best friend la. Always fool around when i sit on the school bus & that beehive hair teacher dam good can. Mdm Tan issit. Forgotten. x.x LOL. But, i hate is when she angry or ppl never do hw, she use his/her pencilcase go bang the table till the pencilcase fly luh. LOL. i tio before hor.. T__T Then, after streaming issit. We are granted permission to bring gameboy all those to school sia. LOL. Then, i rmb i playing the pokemon red. x.x Use cheat code de. I vs all those also use cheat code de. All maxed stats & lv max. RARE CANDY.. PROTEIN.. SODIUM.. blah, don't rmb. x.x

Pri 4 ; met my first best friend till now de best friend a.k.a Samual Shing. Btw, i am in pri 4H if i rmb. There was this english teacher.. named Stephanie. x.x LOL, she wear specs de.. then teach English quite good la.. f3. But v. young de. Lol. But then, changed teacher in the 2nd semester. I forgot who the other teacher le . LOL.

Pri 5 ; same class with Samual again. 5J. haas. Fun la. Met a lot of new friends this year. :x We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun ~ First time, i tio someone in my life. Lol. i go point that guy middle finger cause he go kick our soccer ball away. LOl. Next day, that guy don't dare come back le. :P Last time, for your info ; i v. naughty 1 ok. LOL. never do hw, everyday sit outside office with 1 girl doing homework. hahaha. LOL. The Mr Lee also fedup with me sia & i tio call parents this year. Lol. Cause i owe the teacher 9 pages of xi zi, 5 composition, etc. Like 1 month never touch dao homeworks sia . LOL. x.x

Pri 6 ; same people in 5J again , and woots i am in 6J . LOL. PSLE sia this year. tmd. Lol. I remember i get 182 for PSLE nia. ROAR. cause we everyday play monkey bar, crocodile bridge(whatever), then catching. Lol. Played soccer with classmates everyday & skip recess. LOL. This year, i slacked a lot & get those sucked results. tsktsk. x.x Changed this year, swear that i won't touch bad words anymore but still scolded sometimes when i am v. angry or pissed off. But still, changed for the better le. :P

Sec 1 ; all my primary school friends separated le. T__T. Left a few in my school. I joined Bedok View Sec. Lol. Met new classmates & my buddies now. Favian, Shu, Jon, Wei Ming they all. Lol. My teacher was a nice teacher yea. Her name is Miss Joyce Tham. Lol. She teach my literature, i get A sia. LOL. dam zai lehs she. f3. I am in class 1N6. Lol. I remember sec 1 got 1 camp. My parents dowan me go. Lol. Then, teacher said compulsory. I talk dao bring parents down go talk to the principal sia. LOL. Then, in the end got permission not to go for the camp. Lol. yay. :x Before that, got 1 group introduction de. Whole class sit in 1 circle and start talking about yourself. Then, fav that joker shout to me say ; OI, what your name. LOL! I was like.. Jun an. Then i wan ask what his name. He reply faster than me sia. LOL. Then i rmb i met Jon, is my parents & his parents are friends. Lol. Then, i line up with him de. Then, about shu. We know each other cause of games. He got 1 RO monthly card. Then, we saw it and chat about it. That's how my 9 buddies are formed. About Darren, he is a bit anti-social that time. Lol. But then, i talked to him for like 1 year le. He changed in sec 2. About my love life, those who know me should know ba. hahaha. :P

Sec 2 ; same classmates as in sec 1. Lol. Those jokers again. f3. Glad to have them & miss tham as teacher. haas. 2N6 again. Darren become socialable le. Lol. He is a game maniac lai de. LOL. x.x I remember this year was MapleStory beta year. Lol. Then, we started off as noobs. Lol. Shu joined MapleSEA at around May. He intro-ed to me & i join at around oct. Lol. Then, Darren joined soon after me. He come in straight got ppl giv him 2 set ilbi liao. LOL. He go & resell and got a lot of $. x.x That time, no 2x exp card de. He purely hardcore to 106 in 2 mths. x.x LOL. QuicksiIver is his ign. Quitted around next year soon after he quit.

Sec 3 ; separated le. T__T. I was in 3N9, they in 3N8. ROAR. I wan 3N8 de. So many of my friends are there. This year, Shao Wei came in as a freshman. haas. Met a lot of new friends too! ppl like qiuxian fishball. LOL. She cute la.. always kacau me. f5. Shao Wei a bit lonely that time de. I made the intitative to greet hi and chat with him. After that, we made friends. Found out that he played MapleStory too. But on taiwan server. After that, he converted to MapleSEA le. He play delph server. I play Aquila. Soon, he say he convert to Aquila. haas. That time, i just came back Maple after quitting for 1 year+. hees. Chiong a new hermit called xiaosoulsin to lv 89 & quitted. Me & Shao Wei eventually became best friends. We share problems & counsel each other. ^^

Sec 4 ; went to 4N9. Me & Shao Wei became best friends. This year, Luo Fang & Qiu Rong came in. Lol. They sit behind us nia. x.x Then, they came in at march & in may they became the top 2 of the class liao. zzz. So zai sia. LOL. Chatted with them lor.. then eventually become best friends too. haas. Qiu Rong became my jie. Xin Ming also become my jie. As for Luo Fang.. hmm.. Lol. Best of best friends ba. haas. A lot of unforgotten memories with Luo Fang. Lol. Very nice year. :P

♥ ~ My Reminiscence ~ ♥

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That is love;

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